So hey it's been a long long time since I've written a post.About 2 to 3 years duh.
Okay so apparently a lotta things happened these 2 years.Happy things and ofc sad things.I'm sure the ones who know me,know what I'm talking about.And if you don't,it's okay.It's not something you should or you wanna know.Too much negative energy in my life and I don't wanna spread it.Oopss.
Okay so obviously I'm going to college soon and obviously I'm not sure whether it's a good thing.Strange,it's a good thing for everyone else cause like they can finally do and learn the things they want to,you know,on the mighty way to fulfill their dreams.Duh.😒 And ofc neither do I,I'm finally on my way to fulfill my dreams.(okay more like finally getting rid of addmaths lol) Last year,I would be very happy when I even think about it,but now,since everything is not going right(don't say go left) and is getting worser and worser.I start thinking that maybe fulfilling my dreams is somehow...extravagant.Yes extravagant.Okay I know this sound strange.But if you're standing in my shoes.,I'm sure that you would also say so.Looks like God is not on my side.Cause he's(or she's) giving me endless tests these days.If you wanna say it in Chinese it's a typical situation of 一波未平一波又起.😒😒 And I couldn't solve these fucking annoying problems.So I'll always avoid to face it like a coward lol.But seriously theirs nothing I can do.Honestly I've been thinking of...not going college.Yea.Ofc when I told this to someone.They'll be like NO YOU SHOULDN'T EVEN THINK ABOUT THAT YOU SHOULD CONTINUE YOUR STUDIES.But seriously I KNOW! WHO WOULDN'T WANT TO CONTINUE THEIR STUDIES IF THEY HAVE THE CHANCE.But it's just too hard for me,for my family.There's too many difficulties and obstacles.Sometimes I would just wanna dump everything and run away.Then I remembered,that I am still,a weak af girl,not even an official adult,and the most important thing,without money.HAHAHAHA WHERE ARE YOU SUPPOSE TO GO WHEN YOU'RE A BOLD AND MONEYLESS TEENAGER.Besides,you have a family left behind,who needs your care and support.You'll be too much of an asshole if you really ran away. Okay obviously I can do anything about that,they'll still my family even tho the sky falls down.You can't just dump them behind and run away like an asshole.
Okay whatever since I can't solve them,I'd still feel better since I've spat it out.Even tho you guys might don't understand.Thank you for reading this meaningless post.Have a good day.
